Happy Birthday Eva! Today of all days I wish you were here. I wish your daughter could talk to you, not just spiritually, but physically, to say out loud all she is thinking and for her to be able to look into your eyes and see the expression on your face. I wish she could feel your arms around her holding her for the last time before she becomes a wife. I wish her dad could be with her in the temple. I am such a poor replacement for you. I know you can see her and see what a wonderful person she is. She is so happy! I've never seen her like this before. She has found an amazing man to marry. I love the way they look at each other, such love and devotion is in that look. They have what you and Chuck have and I am so grateful for that. I know you will be with her, have been with her, and will continue to be with her. But tomorrow especially, I pray she can feel you, smell you, know, beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are there beside her. I know that seems like I'm asking for a lot, but I know that it's possible and it seems like small compensation for having to be without you for so long here. I hope that she knows how much I love her and you. You have a wonderful family and soon they'll pull it back together again. Christen and Zac have made an impact on the rest of the family and I'm so grateful for the choices they have made. I have hope for Brandon and Alysa and Chuck. Heather is such a sweet, wonderful girl, oh how I hope she can pull herself together and let herself be happy. What can I do for her? How do I help her see what she is missing? I would love a magic pill that would allow me to see exactly what to say and when to say it and know that it made a difference in her. All I can think to do is to love her and that's a start.
Happy 46th Birthday to one of the most wonderful people I'll ever know.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Thursday, March 1, 2012
March 1, 2012
It's hard to believe that it's March already! We're only days away from Christen's wedding, Spencer's farewell, and his leaving. It's totally gone through the classic stages though...first it feels forever away and you do a few things to help make yourself feel like you are getting ready, then it gets closer so you start doing a few more things, and then one day you wake up and realize it's right here and you aren't ready and haven't done enough before now and it's full on panic mode. We're about to the panic mode stage right now.
I did find a cute dress pattern and mom is helping me a ton get my dress done. We made a couple of practice dresses first which both turned out really nice. But, there was a lot of changing, fitting, thinking, adjusting etc with them, so they took a while. I found some cute pink satin and bought that. It took a day to cut out and make the dress lining, then another day to cut out the dress (well, a couple of hours really, I didn't stay the whole day). Mom has been sewing on it this week and has the jacket to the point that it needs to be fitted and then she is going to start on the dress so that when I come down this weekend we can do fittings and finishings instead of sewing. That will put us several hours ahead of where we would be. We also need to finish bridesmaid dresses on Saturday as well. That's going to take several hours. So, I will get Trevor set up for his prom stuff and then head down to spend the rest of the day sewing.
Spencer and I actually have a good handle on his stuff. We did the last bit of his shopping yesterday. I have some last minute things to get him...hangers, laundry bag, storage stuff...but other than that, he is ready to go. Of course there is the cleaning and storing all the stuff, but we won't do that until his last week at home. Then we'll pack up as we clean so that won't be too bad. We made a list of food for his farewell and I'll be doing that the days between the wedding and the shower. Friday is a work day at school, so I'm not coming in that day and I'm going to take Thursday off as well to celebrate our anniversary, so I'll have Wed through Friday off, then Saturday and Sunday will be crazy. By Monday I'll need a day off to recover from my week off.
Last night was our spaghetti dinner fundraiser for the young men and young women. I thought it went much, much smoother than last year. There were still problems, but on the whole I was not nearly as frustrated and exhausted as the year before. We even made more money, so that's good. All I can say is, I'm glad it's over. Now we'll start focusing on camp :) ugh.
Well, got to get ready for school now
I did find a cute dress pattern and mom is helping me a ton get my dress done. We made a couple of practice dresses first which both turned out really nice. But, there was a lot of changing, fitting, thinking, adjusting etc with them, so they took a while. I found some cute pink satin and bought that. It took a day to cut out and make the dress lining, then another day to cut out the dress (well, a couple of hours really, I didn't stay the whole day). Mom has been sewing on it this week and has the jacket to the point that it needs to be fitted and then she is going to start on the dress so that when I come down this weekend we can do fittings and finishings instead of sewing. That will put us several hours ahead of where we would be. We also need to finish bridesmaid dresses on Saturday as well. That's going to take several hours. So, I will get Trevor set up for his prom stuff and then head down to spend the rest of the day sewing.
Spencer and I actually have a good handle on his stuff. We did the last bit of his shopping yesterday. I have some last minute things to get him...hangers, laundry bag, storage stuff...but other than that, he is ready to go. Of course there is the cleaning and storing all the stuff, but we won't do that until his last week at home. Then we'll pack up as we clean so that won't be too bad. We made a list of food for his farewell and I'll be doing that the days between the wedding and the shower. Friday is a work day at school, so I'm not coming in that day and I'm going to take Thursday off as well to celebrate our anniversary, so I'll have Wed through Friday off, then Saturday and Sunday will be crazy. By Monday I'll need a day off to recover from my week off.
Last night was our spaghetti dinner fundraiser for the young men and young women. I thought it went much, much smoother than last year. There were still problems, but on the whole I was not nearly as frustrated and exhausted as the year before. We even made more money, so that's good. All I can say is, I'm glad it's over. Now we'll start focusing on camp :) ugh.
Well, got to get ready for school now
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